This is a little awkward to share because I can’t believe how long it has taken me to share this. Not only on my blog, but with my friends.
I’ve covered up too long and it’s made me realize that I’m not the only one, as I think back about all th children I’ve taught and their families. And what I’ve covered is the essence of my past and part of the physical me. My name is Faige (not Paige with an F but FAY GEE- G like in Gate and then the long vowel sound of E). When I started teaching I became “Fay” easier to say, to prounce and to deal with. I’m proud of the Faige me. Named for a relative who past away, a tradition of my Jewish faith, that continued with the naming of my children and then my grandchildren. It brings me solice to know that we keep family close to our heart to remember in this way. I am so proud of who I am because of the past that has formed me. And the physical me has often been a challenge, from the tall, long-legged awkward young girl; wide-eyed eager to take it all in. Hopefully you have recognized the passion and compassion that’s been with me for always. The ears that stick out, the nose that I finally grew into and then the scar on my chest (two open heart surgeries) that I have embraced as my badge of courage, but covered it up for many years.
At 70 it’s really time, well overdue, to let it go. Not to worry about the physical me, but relish the time I have for more adventures, experiences, family and friends. Time to sub and cherish the unbelievable satisfaction I get from being in my school environments.
The teacher in me is always part of my blog, and as I said in the beginning of this post, I wonder what students and families cover up so we see them in the best light. I imagine until we really get to know them, build trust and relationships, everything is superficial.
Remembering that, hopefully opens our eyes to what is and what might be. As always your comments and discussions are welcomed.
My nephew took this picture trying out his new iPhone. Being me is just fine!
An addendum: I want to add I love my Faige name. I also love my Fay/Faye name. They are both part of who I am. They both complete me.